I’ve realized that being obedient is a lot more difficult when it is something that you don’t really *want* to do, when it is something that may not make *my* life better in the present moment and may even make it a little rocky.
It’s funny that you can be trucking along thinking, “yeah, I’m a pretty obedient gal… I could read my Bible more, do my studies with more zeal but all in all” and then BAM! something you hadn’t planned on and you feel like you’ve been kicked in the stomach and you know you just have to do this but it wasn’t in your “plan”.
Obedience.
I’m not sure that I realized what obedience is all about.
Waiting and listening for God. Being obedient on his time.
Much easier when it isn’t about something that you know you need to do. It is easier when you are just waiting to see where you are going next, not when to do something that he has totally put on your heart to do.
Learning.
Growing.
Growing pains.
